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Whats on your mind.
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Tell me anything I will listen.

a day at the office
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a day atthe


a day at the office riding arround in circles in the sun then home but hot and sweaty :) - giles

Videos from Herqlex
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Anyone has videos of this model http://www.flirt4free.com/photos/guys/1061175.php

Math Poetry
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Be Who You Are....
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uploading pics, too
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As much as I'd like you guys watch me beat off while i show off my slim retail body, id also like to upload pics. how do i do that? thanks, and luv u all!

fantasy
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what is your favorite fantasy? the dream that keeps happening. the thought during masturbation. the vid you watch over and over wishing you were in it?

Happy birthday Jerry (Thelionheart)
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Have the best celebration for your birthday my friend... with your love close to you... Hugzzz to both of you xx00xx00xx

the point
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so whats the point

self service
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wacthing a couple new vids on self sucking. and who on this sitebhas never tried it? admit it, you all have tried. but who can? and do you think most str8 teenage boys try it at least once?

Friendship
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Today you Feel ........
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In one, two or a few words describe how you are feeling today.......

Hey new here
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Not new to this site. Been watching videos for a bit. This is my new profile my old one had so many problems.

Not sure what to do
Views: 145 · Added: 11 hrs ago

Hey guys, this is going to be a long post, sorry.

The basic theme is not knowing if/how/when I should come out, if you're going to give me advice, please read the whole post.

My grandmother is one of the most supportive people I've ever met. She always tells me "If it makes you happy and it doesn't hurt anybody, do it." She was adopted but 28 years ago she found out she had two sisters, Paula and Dana. They lived in Columbus and we're in Pittsburgh and even though the distance was long, they would always visit my Grandma and vice-versa. Well one day when I was like 7 or 8 we went up to Columbus to visit Dana and her husband Curt. I always knew them as my aunts and uncles, even though they're technically my great aunts and great uncles. Well during our visit Dana and Curt took me to the YMCA or a similar type of gym to go swimming. After we were done swimming Curt took me into the locker room to get dressed and this was the first time I'd seen a grown man naked. I don't know if it's normal for little kids to ask why men have hair down there and stuff but I did, and without getting too graphic Curt ended up molesting me and taking advantage of me sexually. I know that seems random, but it was my first sexual encounter and I think it led to me being gay. I could be wrong.

Jump ahead to middle-school, I've known I was gay since the end of Elementary School but I've never told anybody. In middle-school I pretty much took an interest in everything that fit the gay stero-type: musical theatre, singing, dancing, art, other cultures, languages, clothes, stuff like that. I got bullied a lot, and it was really physical. My bully, DJ, and his friends would punch and kick me, spit on me, knock stuff out of my hands... I had to go to the hospital 8 times throughout middleschool for broken bones or stitches. My parents are very right-wing conservatives. My dad was an Army Ranger for a long time and now he's a stone mason who owns his own business, my entire life was filled with gay slurs and him telling our family that gay people were abominations of the Lord. I'm religious, but I think we should love everybody equally, not based on gender. My mom, I know, would accept me no matter what, but thinks that no matter a man's interest he has a duty to be strong and show no signs of weakness. I know it doesn't sound like I'm describing real people, but that's honestly how they are. So whenever I'd come home bruised or bleeding, they'd do whatever they could to take care of it without going to the hospital. If I did have to go, they'd make me promise to tell the people I got hurt by an accident, not by being beaten up. After DJ bruised a couple of my ribs, my dad enrolled me in three karate classes, Krav Maga, Judo and Tae-Kwon-Do. After around a year of these classes every day my dad threatened to make me stop taking them if I didn't fight DJ, and I really enjoyed the classes so I decided to fight him. It wasn't a gigantic event but I fought DJ and won and he didn't pick on me for the rest of the year.

Bringing us to high-school. A couple of kids on the football team (this entire story sounds like a cliche) heard about the fight and really wanted to meet me so they approached me on the first day of school in my freshman year. After some badgering I sat down with them and explained what happened. I was a mess and cried the entire time I told the story. To my surprise it didn't bother them, they didn't think I was weird, and one of the girls that sat with them even started crying too. After I was done with the story they didn't say much, but for the rest of the day they would say hello to me in the halls and stuff. It was the first time a peer of mine went out of the way to talk to me. The next day, I tried to sit alone, but they sat with me, and over time we all became really, really good friends. Since, like most schools, ours was practically run by the football team this made me one of the cool kids. Long story short (I know, too late), I spent the rest of my time in high-school being one of the popular kids: homecoming king, most likely to succeed, class clown, lead in two musicals, student council, you get the picture. I was in the drama club and the band, and I had a lot of crushes on guys, but I also had a lot of girlfriends.

So before the end of my senior year I had quite a few girlfriends, but I had never been in love with a girl, and I was a virgin. I hated myself for being gay and I thought I could force it away by being with a woman, so I asked my girlfriend at the time if she'd be willing to fool around with me that night and she agreed. She blew me and it was nice and all, but I could force myself to have sex with her, I simply wasn't attracted to her. It didn't work, obviously.

Then college came and I seriously fell in love with a chubby ginger boy named Alex. One of the first times we met he asked me if I wanted to cuddle. I pretended to be weirded out by the question but ultimately made a joke out of it and agreed. We became best friends and were inseperable. I spent more time in his room than in mine, we cuddled a lot, we worked out together and the first time I saw him naked, I knew that I couldn't change that I was gay. After about a year of being best friends he said I was weirding him out and spending way too much time with him and in a dramatic scene, we stopped being friends. It was the most crushing feeling I'd ever felt and in a way, I'm still in love with him.

This brings us to the present. The reason I wrote all this is to illustrate the problems I'm having with coming out. I have tons of friends, in the amount of time it took me to write this I've missed 9 text messages from all different people. A lot of them are really weirded out by gay people and one of them has even told me he'd disown me if he knew I was gay. My dad and I are really close, but he literally hates gay people. I never told anybody about Curt molesting me and I want too, but I know my Grandma loves Dana and Curt so much and that she'd disown them if she knew. I don't know what to do guys, but I feel like a spy in a foreign place full of people who hate the place I come from. The gay place.

I need help,
Hec.

daddy/son
Views: 220 · Added: 11 hrs ago

there is nothing i dislike more than to see videos labeled daddy, daddy/son or father/son. i know it is mainly a term for an older man with a teen and that they are all actors, not related. but i have a real image problem with fathers having sex with their sons. its abuse, not consentual. and i hate my father and making light of a father/son relationship turns my stomach. just my opinion guys, i know there are some out there that get turned on by this. to each his own. i just wonder if anyone really had a non-abusive, enjoyable relationship with a father and that they still feel good about it today.

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guess who turns 1200 days tomorrow?
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guess who turns 1200 days tomorrow?




Sponge Bob



Patrick



Mr. Krabs



Plankton


T in the park
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fabulous, good thing to get me out of how I am feeling. I figured when life kicks dirt your face, you dust yourself down, and say bring it on, my mum had a bad accident,my auntie died. So its time to stand tall......

Lol
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jo technique
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when you jo do you stop at the moment of ejaculation? or do you continue to stroke as the cum flows?

Embeded videos still not working with Tumblr
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Waiting for the VIPs to fix this issue before I continue posting more videos.


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Need a good laugh?.....
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WATCH THE FINE BROTHERS:


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holiday
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it's that holiday time 2 weeks in POLAND

San Diego
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Hey guys, I'm heading to San Diego for Comic-Con, so will be away from GBT for a while. Maybe see some of you there.


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mach mich zu nem toy
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such einen typ der mich dominiert und mir seinen willen aufdr

relationships
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what is your most important ingrediant in your current relationship...that keeps is together and on track?

THE 'C' WORD......
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Stars
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I sit outside at night looking at the stars wondering how many more people in my life have to die or dissappear in order for my heart to finally become unmendable. How many times can my life forever be changed. One, two, maybe three? How many times must I tell myself that these tears aren't for nothing. That every tear that falls into these sheets somehow strengthens my resolve. How should I feel knowing that I will never see your smile again. I will never hear your voice say my name again. Ever. How can I help but feel that a unique part of me is gone forever. I feel like im just an empty space, a hollow shell without any substance. Theres so much that I wish I could have said to you.

Would you vote for an
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Would you vote for an "admitted heterosexual"...see how residents of Austin Texas responded to that question: http://youtu.be/88tWn26bh3M

cybermalemk/Jordan
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so what's the deal with|jordan , anyone know, it's been a month since he logged on. did he get moved? settled anyone?




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